In case you haven't noticed yet, I'm a HUGE fan of L.O.V.E. I love love and I'm not talking about romantic whimsical love, I'm talking the real deal! Love of all of life, love of self, love the Earth, love all beings. I truly believe that love makes the world go 'round and if we could come back to love, all would be well and right! If everyone made love everyday, the world would truly be a different place! Love is never about another person, its about where we are in our lives and how much we LOVE who we are and how we are showing up in the world. True love is this all encompassing connection to life where things flow and we feel intertwined with the Universe, or God/Goddess. All we need is love, for real!
I run up against the sense of love when I feel completely depleted and overwhelmed with all that is happening in the world. I recently moved back to a part of Florida where I grew up. It has always been a magical place for me to live next to turquoise oceans. I love walking on the beach at night under the full moon and just listening to the waves crashing along the shore. I love the Pelicans that surf the waves, reminding me of prehistoric creatures that once roamed the Earth. There is nothing I don't like about the beach and the ocean! When I first moved back, I couldn't get enough of the water and how it felt to watch the sunset while asking momma ocean to cleanse me of what I no longer needed and asking her what I could do to give back to her. I was exploding with love! I remember telling someone I felt like I was so in love and I wasn't even involved with anyone on any level. It felt amazing! My life felt extra-ordinary and it still does! I'm completely whelmed with love everyday when I think of all I have in my life, so many gifts and blessings to be grateful for in this very moment.
I recently felt myself coming off of this high by seeing images on social media that have completely broken my heart. The beach I grew up on is no longer safe to be on and the marine life is dying all around us. Wild fires, violence, etc. I started to really feel my heartbreaking. I am an extremely empathetic person and literally feel so much of what goes on around me and it has been overwhelming to say the least! I love life and all of its beings and to see it dying all around me has been a bit too much. I fell into a bit of a depression for a few weeks and nearly got to the point of wondering what is this all for? What are humans doing? Why are we hurting this beautiful planet? What can I do and how can I stop contributing to the problem? I honestly forgot about love because I was hurting so much! I love so deeply and sometimes I wonder if I feel hurt even deeper because of all of the love I feel. So, what do we do when all that is happening around us feels overwhelming and we fall into despair and lose love? Well, we come back to love....
Time and time again we come back to love. It takes courage to keep our hearts open and not contract, especially when we are in pain. I literally cried so hard one day last week after seeing the beach I love look like a war zone. I cried so hard because my heart was broken. I felt like it was being torn out of my chest and all I could think was..... this is how I felt when someone I loved a long, long time ago broke my heart. I couldn't breath and I just wanted it to stop, yet I kept feeling it all. I stayed with the pain and the images that were coming through. I didn't try to make it stop because honestly, this is a part of love. Love doesn't always feel good, in fact it fucking hurts sometimes! It is whether we stay in the moment with love as it ebbs and flows, as it tears us open and apart, and mends us back together with her sweetness OR whether we abandon love because it is too difficult to stay with the hurt and discomfort. Do we choose to shut down and grab the nearest thing to numb ourselves, or do we say "Bring it!" and feel it all! I used to shut down. The overwhelm of the world and feeling all of the pain of those around me was too much, not to mention my own pain. I used to shut it down and numb myself because it felt better to not stay open and felt better to contract and shut down. What I didn't realize at the time is by shutting my heart down, I was cutting myself off from my true essence. I was taking away my connection to others and to the divine. What I know now is that the bravest souls are those who have the courage to open their hearts time and time again because they know how difficult it can be. They have been there and they know the courage it takes and they still chose to open their hearts to love. There is a pose in yoga, most of us know called warrior pose. They named it warrior pose because your arms are extended out to the sides and your heart is wide open and lifted towards the sky. It takes a warrior to open the heart and have it exposed.
We always have to come back to the heart, to live from the heart. This is where the magic happens! As I have gotten wiser (aka older) I realize how much I have lived my life with a closed heart. It was just too unbearable for me to leave my heart wide open and what if people didn't really love and appreciate me? I was too scared to really allow people in because of all of my hurts AND I had to learn how to be more discerning about who I could allow into my heart. And now I realize what a gift it is to be so loving and so kind hearted. I love helping others come back home to who they are and to their 4 chambered hearts. When we live in love then we are able to forgive and have compassion for others. When we take time to connect with that love, we are able to get out of the mind and truly FEEL what is real and what is real is love.
We have created a disillusioned world out of fear. "If I give too much, then they won't be able to give it back" OR "If I tell them how I feel, then they will go away or not like me". All not true, but what we put out comes back. So when people put out fear, they will receive a fear response. All you can do is be responsible for who you are and what you are putting out there. If you are living from your heart, more than likely people will respond in the same way. And if they don't, then its none of your business. We cannot control how others show up and how we show up to others is our responsibility. Standing in love is standing in our power and when you are in your power, you don't give it away when others respond in a way that is less than love. You might be too much for someone, but never dim your light for another!
Keep on loving, keep your heart open with discernment, and always know you are love. When you feel overwhelmed, sit with your heart. She will tell you all is well and right, she will never mislead you. Much love, Heather
A Note From Heather~
I'm a loving, caring, and intuitive healer, whom feels a deep connection with all beings. On this blog I will share all things Spiritual, Health, Love, Nature, Bodywork, and Healing that needs its voice to be empowered!